Topsey Turvey

If anybody knows someone in the LA area who needs a roommate, let me know.
I need a new apartment ASAP.

Ah… LA.

The Way It Should Be

I listened to him laugh. This tiny little voice, still unable to even make syllables, laughing into the telephone.

“Say hello,” she said, the voice on the other side. And the tiny little voice laughed.

We talked some more, catching up on each other’s lives. Lives that used to be intertwined. We used to be inseperable. Now, we are very far apart. Not geographically. She’s down in Marina del Ray and I’m in West Los Angeles. We’re barely twenty minutes apart. We see each other every once in a while, but we talk a great deal. Tonight, we talked for two hours.

We were happy together. Then, we were unhappy together. And finally, here, we are happy together again. We miss each other.

“Say hello,” she said. And the tiny little voice laughed.

She’s happy. I’m happy. And that’s the way it should be.

JOHN WICK’S 25TH BIRTHDAY BANANZA!!!

It’s John’s (annual) 25th Birthday Party
featuring
THE AWFUL LOT — LIVE!!!

IF YOU ARE READING THIS, YOU ARE INVITED!!!

December 10th
at the Liberal Arts Masonic Lodge
2244 Westwood Blvd
Los Angeles, CA
Start Time 8:00 PM
Band Plays at 9:00 PM

It’s a pot luck, so don’t bring gifts…
BRING FOOD & DRINKS!!!

All guests will receive a FREE copy of the
UNOFFICIAL AWFUL LOT DEMO EP!

Also, if you know anyone who should have recieved this invite and hasn’t,
GIVE IT TO THEM!!!

Tell all your friends!
Tell all your enemies!
Bring your wife and/or husband and/or con-sensual partner!
Be there or be PI!

(RSVP Please)

Religion

A friend of mine voiced private concern about my public outrages against religion. I’ve been thinking for a while about the best way to answer her.

 

Here it is.

An old friend of mine reveres Thor. Not in a funny way. Not in a clever, ironic, self-aware way. I mean he really prays to Thor. In fact, he prays to Thor, Loki, Odin, and the whole lot of them. This friend of mine was also studying to be an electrical engineer. His personal hero was Tesla; a man who seemed divided between science and supernaturalism… or at least, that’s how he’s been portrayed by those who have written his biographies.

Another friend of mine revered Bear. Not in a funny way. I mean she really had dialogues with Bear. She talked to him, he talked back, they discuss ed and dialogued, and she came away with new perspectives. (She informs me that she’s moved on to Trickster Gods, although Gods never forget their followers…)

Myself? I pray to Discordia all the time. I also pray to Athena, Snake, Ganesh, and my Grandfather. I’ve often called myself an omnitheist: I believe in all the Gods. I just like some of them more than others.

For some, much more.

When I talk about “religious thinking,” what I really mean is “dogmatic thinking.” I’m talking about faith: blind belief that ignores evidence to the contrary. Blind belief that not only harms the believer, but also harms those around them. Often with the best intentions, although not always.

For example, let’s look at something controversial in America. Let’s look at embryonic stem cell research. According to biologists, this is the most promising branch of medical research in our modern world. I say “according to biologists” because I’ve actually looked at medical journals, read the evidence they’ve presented, and find it absolutely convincing. These same biologists, who are actually doing this work, put their work up for public discussion, dissection, and discussion. And criticism. They make their work available for any who want to look at it and kick it around.

So, by saying “according to biologists,” what I’m really saying is “according to the evidence presented by biologists…”. But we use shorthand like that–either out of convenience or ignorance–and because we do–or, in this case, because I do–we sound a little like we’re using an argument of authority. Which is actually the opposite of the case.

Go look up research studies and experiments done within the field. Go look at it. Don’t listen to what Fox News tells you. Don’t listen to what your pastor/reverend/rabbi tells you. Go look it up for yourself. These people want to be criticized. They want their work to be dissected and dismantled. They want to be corrected if they are in error. Why?

Because the purpose of science is to understand the world as best we can through a process of self-correction, criticism, and error-checking.

Religious thinking, on the other hand, instructs us to believe what we are told. Faith: belief regardless of evidence to the contrary.

For example, here’s a religious argument: Embryonic stem cell research is “bad” because those babies have souls.

Let’s examine the claims of this argument.

First, the “baby” in question is not actually a baby. “Embryonic” stem cell research actually takes cells from blastocysts. If you’ve never seen a blastocyst or even know what one is, you can find all about them here. Blastocysts are so small, the brain of a fly has 1000 times more cells than a blastocyst.

Let me say that again: the brain of a housefly has 1000 times more cells than a blastocyst. Just the brain. We aren’t even counting the rest of the little fella.

When you see posters and fliers and other propaganda speaking against stem cell research, you see pictures of aborted fetuses. These pictures are incorrect. They are arguments made by people who are deliberately ignorant or intentionally deceitful. Both of which count as “sins” in my book. Deliberately ignorant because they believe what they are told, despite what scientists around the world are saying, or intentionally deceitful because they want to make a point by ignoring the facts. They are deceitful because they are lying to themselves.

Second, let’s explore the idea of this little thing having a soul.

First, I don’t have to prove it doesn’t. The believer has to prove that it does.

You see, I believe in Discordia. (ALL HAIL DISCORDIA!) She’s the Greek Goddess of… oh, hell. If you’re reading this, you know who Discordia is. Anyway, for the faithful in the audience, those who believe in the God of the Book, please disprove my Goddess.

Go on. Prove she does not exist.

*waiting*

*still waiting*

You can’t do it. Because the moment you provide any evidence, I’ll just say, “She wanted you to find that so you wouldn’t believe in her.”

It’s called bait and switch. And religious people are doing it all the time.

Okay, so nobody can prove the existence or disprove the existence of Discordia. Does that make those of you who believe in the God of the Book more or less likely to switch your faith? In other words…

If you can’t disprove Discordia, does that make you more or less likely to start eating hot dogs on Friday and stop going to your church?

Didn’t think so. You see, I have no evidence for my claim of Discordia’s existence. None. Not a sausage. I have a holy book written by two prophets who claim Discordia came to them in a bowling alley (after a lot of acid and beer) and told them to write said holy book. And I believe them. Why? I just do. Because it amuses me to do so. And because Discordia is just plain beautiful. And kind. And cruel. And just… Discordia.

And because she teaches me to question everything. Even herself. Catma. Not dogma. Catma. The absolute refusal to believe in anything.

The only God(dess) in the world that encourages skepticism.

But see, that’s the whole point. Prove the blastocyst has a soul. You can’t. I can’t prove the blastocyst is Discordia. You can’t prove it.

And if you can’t prove it, don’t expect anyone else to go along with it. And, more importantly…

DON’T BELIEVE THE REST OF THE WORLD HAS TO RESPECT YOUR BELIEF, EITHER.

Here’s the real kicker. Faith gets a bye. In our culture, faith gets away clean. Remember when I said that scientists want to be criticised and challenged? Well, faith doesn’t. Try talking to anyone with a critical tone about their religion. They’ll look at you like you’re nn insensitive jerk.
Because in our culture, you can be critical of someone’s politics, their choice of boy/girlfriend, their favorite movies, TV shows and even ice cream, but don’t you say anything about my religion!!!

Well, frankly, it’s time we got over that.

If your religion doesn’t make any sense, I’m gonna say so.

If your religion teaches you that any member of the human race–gays, blacks, whites, women–should be treated any different from you, I’m gonna raise my hand.

If your religion teaches that basic and fundamental understandings of the world are wrong, I’m gonna have to disagree and ask for your evidence.

You think the world is 6,000 years old? Stand up and prove it. And don’t use your holy book.

You think gays have less rights than you? Stand up and prove it. And don’t use your holy book.

You think you have a soul? Freewill? Stand up and prove it. And don’t use your holy book.

Use evidence. Evidence.

It is a basic understanding that students of physics today understand more about Relativity than Einstein did. It is a basic understanding that students of biology today know more about evolution than Darwin did. It is a basic understanding that geology, chemistry, mathematics, and all the other sciences have advanced through the years.

And it is a basic understanding that students of philosophy today know more about morality, ethics, metaphysics, and epistemology than someone who wrote a book in the Bronze Age.

We’ve moved on since Moses, Mohammed, and Jesus. We’ve learned. We’ve adapted. We’ve evolved. Not always for the better, but we have done one thing that’s very important.

We’ve learned.

It’s time to put that learning to use, to look at our religious traditions and ask some very difficult questions. One in particular would be a good place to start…

Do we even need them anymore?

The Yellow Sign, Take 2

Act I.

Tuxedos and gowns find their places
But the program gives them no warning
The lights go dim, the play begins
The stage is the violet light of morning
    In Carcosa

The sun bleeds in the East
The Hyades sign their dying throes
The stars arise to claim their prize
The Queen’s sad song still echoes
    In Carcosa

She grows weary of wordy games
Her daughter dances delusioned
Her son sings songs but her heart belongs
Away from the mists and illusions…
    Of Carcosa

Songs of sorrow, songs of pain
The towers are behind the rising moon
A nearing dread fills the Queen in red
In her dreams she sees the doom…
    Of Carcosa

We watch with eyes that can’t turn away
The players speak with voices not their own
We are petty thralls, the fourth wall falls
And we are there…
    In Carcosa

At midnight a stranger calls
The Palid Mask mesmerized
The King in Tatters, the clock is shattered
He turns to us with his flaming eyes…

(to be continued…)

So, I’m a drummer. Not only that, but I’m a drummer in a damn great band. So, as a drummer, I need a kit. Working tools. A magician’s tools.

I picked up a Ludwig Custum Accent kit, wine explosion is the color. 5 piece kit: snare, two mounted toms, one floor tom, one kick bass.

Then, I picked up cymbals. Sabian medium crash: 14″, 16″, ride and 14″ hi hats.

Just for fun, I also picked up a Wuhan china. Big, fat, dirty Wuhan china cymbal. Aw yeah.

I’ve also got two special bits. One’s a titanium Zildjian splash. The other, your standard cowbell. And yeah, I use the cowbell. You just can’t get enough cowbell.

Now, when I got my cymbals, I knew I wanted another floor tom. A HUUUUUUUUGE floor tom. I wanted it for that big sound I’d need when playing the Cthulhu rant during Riot in the Miskatonic Morgue.  I ordered it at West LA Music and they told me it would arrive in two weeks. Two weeks came and went… no floor tom.

I called. They told me the 18″x18″ floor tom was on back order… until February. Now, this was back in September. So, I was dismayed.

Then, on Monday, West LA Music gave me a call. My big tom was in. It came in early. Just in time for the holidays.

My kit is now complete.

And so, ladies and gentlemen, I give you…

… a magician’s working tools.

Gen Con and Orks

I have an ork sword.

Not a real ork sword, but a foam rubber ork sword. I traded for it.

Last night, I had a dream that rather sums up my Gen Con experience.

I think the sword had something to do with it…

We’re climbing a mountain, he and I. He smiles at me with his big grin. His sly grin. He’s up to something.

“Gur noona toda?” he asks.

“No,” I say, shaking my head. “Not tired at all.”

He limps along with his twisted foot, keeping perfect time, the fox robe he wears keeping out the wind. “Toonada vren shootha,” he says next. You’re carrying too much.

I look at the bag on my back. It’s filled with trinkets and baubles. Things I’ve kept from an older time. “I’m carrying what I need.”

He shakes his head. Then, he points at a tree. We stop there and despite what I told him about not being tired, I’m silently grateful.

He goes over my bag, looking through it. “What do you need this for?” he asks me, holding something up.

“It’s important to me.”

He makes that unhappy noise in the back of his throat and throws it away.

“Hey!” I shout, getting back up. But he ignores me and pulls out something else. He shows it to me.

“Tanada. Fith footha.”

“It reminds me of the time when…”

He interrupts me. “Gurna? Gurna oon pooth?”

I nod. “Yes, I still have the memory of it.”

He throws it away. “Taya tay,” he says. Then, you don’t need it.

He goes through the bag some more, tossing as he goes. “Da na,” he says. “Da na, da na, da na.”

“Toonada vren shootha,” he says again. You’re carrying too much.

“If you carry too much,” I say, remembering the words I wrote. My own words. “If you carry too much, your hands won’t be free to catch what life gives you.”

He nods, smiling. Then, he laughs. He tells me it’s funny that I need to be reminded of that when I wrote it myself.

“Shootha de nay ta talla,” I tell him. Even the teacher needs to be reminded.

My bag empty, we continue up the mountain. The climb is easier now. My hands can now grasp what is ahead of me, the weight of what is behind me let go.

“Where are we going?” I ask him again.

“Jasha,” he says. “Alanatha too furtha.” Something to help you remember.

We keep climbing.

We’re almost at the top. He hops up a low tree branch and pulls himself up. “Pugg!” I shout. “I need help to get up! I can’t reach that high!”

A hand reaches down, but it isn’t Pugg’s hand. It is a hand larger than my head. Larger than Pugg’s head. Larger than anybody’s head. It reaches down and pulls me up.

And up. And up. And up.

I’m as high as the sun, looking into his face. His huge, angry, green, toothy, scarred face. And his one furious eye. His breath is like rotten onions and honey. And when he screams at me, it’s like the whole world is screaming at me.

“YOU LISTEN TO PUGG!!!” he shouts.

“AND IF YOU DO NOT LISTEN TO PUGG…

“BASHTHRAKA WILL KILL YOU!!!”

Then, he throws me down. I land hard. He picks up his spear and walks away, his footsteps like thunderclaps.

Pugg leans down, leaning on his walking stick. And when he talks, he uses my language.

“Just to make sure you got the message,” he says.

Then, he walks away, his little limp carrying him. I shake my head and turn, and there is a tall, slender figure in a robe, carrying a book. He opens it, turns to a page and shows me what’s written there. I read the words and nod.

“I understand,” I tell him.

He says nothing. Only turns away and leaves me alone at the top of the hill.