Mixed Feelings

TT Vampire tonight. I’ve been waiting a month to run this game again. So have the players. Everybody’s very excited.

On the other hand, things just get bleaker in the Cam. Frankly, the only reason to keep playing is it’s the only chance I get to see some people. If it weren’t for them, I’d drop it all together. The Tremere chantry thing is a complete fuck up. Complete. Walker’s death is far more compliated than I suspected. The new “venue” system is so poorly thought out and so full of loopholes, it’s hillarious. I don’t trust any of the STs (okay, I trust two). The whole organization is filled with wankers, cheaters, and whiners — from the top to the bottom. In fact, the only way to protect your character is to be a better cheater than the other cheaters. Then, I discover one of the biggest cheaters is an ST. When the STs are cheaters, what’s the point in playing?

A couple of friends asked me to run a Dark Ages troupe game so I sent out e-mails to the membership — and I didn’t get any response at all. The lack of enthusiasm was inspiring.

I made a promise to Trekhead and my chapter. I intend on keeping that promise. However, even if Walker lives, the only place he’ll play is in The Fool’s game (she’s one of the two I trust). I won’t play him in any other ST’s game, and I won’t play him while I’m AST in Trekhead’s game. I may just let him fade into being an NPC. And Marcus? I put too much effort into making Marcus live and breathe to have him get shmozzed by a jabroni.

Anyway, I can play Marcus at the TT game — he was scaring people there for years before he ever came to the Cam. Besides, I don’t have to get his bugs approved, or his curse, or anything else about him. I can just let him be Marcus and not have to make him Vanilla Marcus. He can be Double-Fudge Ripple Rocky Road Marcus, and I don’t have to ask anybody’s permission.

Top it all off with the fact that three of the reasons I play in the Cam are moving to Santa Barbara in July. That leaves… (hold on, counting)… two reasons to stay in the Cam. I don’t need it as a creative outlet, I don’t need it to “authenticate” my muse. I just like telling stories with my friends. That means if I can get a troupe game started, and get the people I like involved, I drop the Cam.